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my last nationals ended alright in the end.
Floorball interschs A division championships 2008 - girls 4th. guys 5th.

my four years in nj playing sports have really been a fruitful time for me.
each nationals, each team, so different.
first year, we were fighting for the championships, we won.
second year we were fighting to retain our championship title, but lost it.
cried after that, we were 2nd overall. 2nd, just wasnt good enough for us.
my third year, we were last.
my fourth year, we climbed our way to 4th placing.

4 different years, 2 different teams.
each team so different, yet the same.
each team working towards different goals - one to retain the championship title, the other just to be in top 4.
but each team displaying the same fundamentals of what would make a good sports team -
hardwork, perseverance, attitude, and talent.
i truly loved both sports, and both teams.


ITS ALL OVER.
=(

need to start mugging. sian.

i lack drive.

im still in the nationals mood.

i miss floorball already =(

To my dearest team, (once again)

i guess the miracle didnt happen, you know, us getting top 2.

but another sort of miracle did happen -
my miracle is meeting all of you, having all of you as my teammates.


I love this team so much, scandals and all =)

I think, we all know, that we will never meet such people again.
Crazily wild,
Weirdly funny and loud,
But yet on court,
We evolve, (according to yini)
To become individuals that truly played, not for ourselves, but for each other.
We play, as TEAM- NJC.


ITS ALL OVER.

I guess, we all want to rewind, back to the june holidays, where all we did was PLAY FLOORBALL!

But yet, there is, the impossibility of the situation.
We will never play with each other on court ever again.
No more trainings,
No more friendlies,
No more Nationals,
Basically no more floorball ever again.
(and no more coach =( )

we may meet up every three months after As,
soon it would be every six,
then once a year,
then once every five years,
and soon,
our meetings would cease to exist.

But what we will remember, is not the medal, it is afterall just a piece of metal,
What we will remember,
Is the past one and a half years together.
Fighting for the same goals, the same dreams.

Remember our promise, girls, the second half has yet to be fulfilled,
And it will be fulfilled =)


Since we are stepping down soon,
I just want to take this chance to thank you guys.

Thank you for letting me have this chance to be your vice captain.
Thank you for trusting me to lead this team,
And although, many a times, I do not do things right,
thank you for understanding, for accepting me along with the mistakes I made.
Thank you for such a wonderful learning experience.


Thank you, so much, for everything.



It is my honour, to be able to serve such a committed, driven, and passionate team.




This journey is one that I will keep dearly,
And when I am down,
I will draw strength from the fact that I was once an NJC FLOORBALLER.



with focus, with heart, as one.


jun
vice captain 07-08
Will be wearing the jersey no 2, tomorrow, for the last time,
And proud of it.


i daresay

we are one of the most bonded teams in nj, and amongst the floorball teams as well,
and that, in itself,
is strength beyond measure.


HELLOO COACH.
i bet you are reading this now and got a shock haha.

no jh did not tag on my tagboard. =)
dont worry about me la worry about yourself -
you are going to fail your challenge!!
6 more days left =)

anyway.


im feeling good about tmr's match.
really really good.

its like how i felt the day before vj's match.
and i think a lot of us feel the same way too.

today's training was just so fun!
i love it when we play against our own lines.
its like we really want to score against each other,
yet its perfectly okay as well when other lines score against us.

and taking penalty shots.
its like some computer game.
whether the player can outsmart the goalie or the other way round.
fun fun fun!
when its not in a real match, that is.

line one really play so much better during trainings than in real matches.
(aiya actually we bluff one la, we were reserving our energy for the last match hahaha)
its like we can score so easily during trainings but somehow we dont in the real matches.
no worries though.
tmr,
line one's gonna own rj and all the other nj lines =)))))))
aiya line two and three give chance la dont come and scold me line one haven own yet lehh haha.

so that was our last training, ever.
together,
as team njc floorball.


my favourite inspirational song

Dark is the night
I can weather the storm
Never say die
I’ve been down this road before
I’ll never quit, I’ll never lay down
See I promised myself I would never let me down

So I’ll never give up
Never give in
Never let a ray of doubt slip in
And if I fall
I’ll never fade
I’ll just get up and try again
Never lose hope
Never lose faith
There’s much too much at stake
Upon myself I must depend
I’m not looking for a place ashore
I’m gonna win

Won’t stop me now
There’s still a ways to go
Some way somehow
Whatever it takes I know
I’ll never quit
I’ll never go down
I’ll make sure they remember my name 100 years from now

When it’s all said and done
My once in a lifetime won’t be back again
Now is the time, for me to stand
Here is my chance, that’s why i...


- Brian Mcknight

its a really nice song!! i can sing it for you if you want tmr!! =)














im in such a singing mood right now.
its a good thing =)
an all too familiar song -



we were strangers,
starting out on a journey.
never dreaming,
what we'll have to go through.
now here we are,
im suddenly standing,
at the beginning with you...


ill emo after nationals.
<3 my team.
and i love playing with them so so much.


fine.
i have officially done sulking, moaning, crying and doing what girls do when we lose a match.
haha.
i bet none of the guys can understand why we were so emo.
but its over =)

to my dearest girls team,
just imagine - we are the nj floorball guy's favourite girls team in the entire universe!! HAHAHA.


im good im good im good =)

may tmr be a better day.
and tuesday be the best ever =)))


you have no idea.
how scared i am.





i trust my team.





but i doubt myself.



i thought i got over it.









but deep inside,
im just an emotional wreck.


please let tuesday be good.


anyway, bx and i are still getting mudpies from ernest!!

"cause im proud of yall for making it this far mah, and even if you all didnt, yall really did train hard"
and the bets still on for tue.
5 mudpies here we come =)

thats one reason why hes one of my best friends =)

let me blog about one of my other best friends...
bingxin!
haha

its for keepsake. 10 years down the road, when i read this again its gonna be memorable =)

bingxin has a blog. (omg shes going to kill me right now)
and actually, though i begged you to let me read it out of curiosity,
i think i already know half the contents of it.

this is a poem bx wrote in ip2 its soo damn cute:

look, im writing a poem for you now,
its so good, you'll surely say wow!
yesterday, i received a poem from you,
so today, im giving you one too.
oh huijun you are so muscular,
you'll look like a bear if you're covered with fur.
________________________
________________________ (censored)
you are so dark, i cant see you at night, (that was when i was in canoeing)
but in my life, you are my light. (just imagine bx saying it, CANNOT RIGHT HAHAHA)
every morning, you are so smelly, (thats when i had morning trainings everyday)
do you know how many air fresheners i bought with my money?
canoe, piano, violin and art,
you are so busy you dont have time to fart.
of all the photos of yourself that you took, (with her phone)
to tell you the truth, all of them looked good.
huijun huijun you are so sweet,
you can find ants crawling at your feet.
BUT girl you are so lousy,
you only know 2 BSB songs out of 20.
ABCDEFG
HIJKLMNOP
as you can tell, i m just crapping,
this poem is as nice as cultural mapping.
so huijun i bet you're touched,
this is the time to tell Bingxin you love her very much.
and now, my poem's coming to an end,
so say 'wow', and love me as much as you can.

-bingxin





sigh.
floorball nationals is going to be one of the last things that we ever do together again in school out of our entire four years.

our journey started in

ip1.
where we were classmates.
there was SPIRE. which was just plain dumb.
we sat together in class.
i took ALOT ALOT of photos of myself with your phone.
and i regret it a lot now.
you are showing those unglam pictures to everyone now!!!
exploitation haha.
we were in the same clique. trackers + canoeist lol.
we were the clique that was forever enthusiastic about sports day while everyone else didnt give a damn. even up till ip4 LOL.

ip2.
you joined canoeing.
we went for dragonboat races together.
you quit, four months before nationals.
nationals meant so much to me.
i wanted to kill you but i didnt show it.
i bet you knew anyway.
we had the whole dont-friend-ziyin-anymore thing. LOL.
and remember sports day?
you made me go throw discus/javelin/the ball thing with you.
i went for fun. anyhow throw. somehow i ended up 3rd.
haha and of course you had two gold medals that year.
i had three bronzes.
and that year,
we were running freaks along with crystal and shufang remember.
that year, i did a full marathon, and you did a half marathon with me =)
there was once, we ran with the track long d guys team, the four of us.
we must have been nuts. we nearly died.
there was sheares bridge, new balance (i wasnt there), hope run (the shirt was so damn ugly) wanted to go for shape run as well but no space.
then at the end of the year,
we ran alot.
we did 25 rounds around nj track one time.
ms tammy was so scary.
she was scolding the soccer guys.
then suddenly she turned and looked at us. we nearly freaked out.
but she smiled sweetly at us, (right after scolding the soccer guys) and asked why we were running so much.
we just told her we felt like running 10km.
she told us we should have just done the road run route twice. we just went "oh, ya hor."
and there was floorball too.
the year where we train less than 10 times,
and got a 3rd placing by anyhow playing.
the year where we went in with zero expectations. gloria, meikeen, you and me.
coach even told the team not to pass the ball to each other cause we cannot pass properly.
LOL.

ip3
MALDIVES!! where we meet new people like abigail (eww haha), jingfang, hash, zai, bryan and crab kissing grace.
we had so much fun remember. us and our traditional costumes.
the sand, the sun, the sea.
and of course, those numerous bridge sessions.
we were both so scared that we wouldn make friends, remember.
its hilarious to think of it now.
of course,
who can forget PW!!!!!
the moment we saw the list: ernest, bingxin, huijun, armani, PHONG.
we knew we were damn cui already.
while everyone else did work,
we just kept laughing every few minutes.
we kept trying to convince everyone else that we were doing work,
but even mrs jalleh didnt believe us LOL.
and everyone else accused us of bullying armani, when we didnt =)
its just that ernest, you and me, make such a bad/awesome combi.
putting us together for ANYTHING, is just a bad idea.
we have the SAME sense of humour, we say things that we think is damn funny but everyone else will just stare at us.
then we go, "not funny meh, damn funny what." and continue laughing.
i can gladly say pw was fun, (not like some other stressed out group LOL)
with all our pizza eating (we tried so many), ernest attic chioanging attempts.
and there was floorball also la.
my liner =)
angry like crazy after the vj match.

ip4.
went for combined schools trials together.
we both played badly.
took SATS together. mugged. and got the same results lol.
ran 4 by 400 metres for sports day, as our long lost clique, and got first =)
we totally OWNED.
you were so cool about it, but shufang, crystal and i were so scared that we would get second.
and then, there were floorball trainings,
and now nationals.
once again,
as liners, as defenders.

theres no other person that i would rather be with on court than bingxin =)
shes the one that i trust the most,
and i would never be able to play as well without her always watching my back like she always does.
i daresay shes one of the few people that can read me very well, both on and off the court.
she can anticipate how i would move on court, how i would play, thats why we never ever end up taking the same players, we never ever clash.
she knows when im upset, even when im smiling.
she knows not to ask the questions that i do not want to be asked.
shes the only one that i really dare to whine to. cause shes the only one that can stand it =)
we both suck at comforting others, even though deep inside, we care.
those times where we kept shoving each other, when someone else was upset.
"you go laa,"
"no la YOU goooo"
"i cannot one, you know i cannot."
"you also know i cannot."
"aiya we both suck la."
haha.

dearest bingxin,
we both know that we havent been playing well for nationals.
come tuesday,
lets play for our team, for coach,
and for each other.

we both know,
that we are capable of so much more.

<3


3 more days =))

frankly speaking,
this season has sucked for me.
thank goodness the rest of the team have been playing well.
thank goodness i still have tuesday's game as my saving grace.

this is my fifth nationals.
my 10000th competition.
and out of so many races and games,
i daresay this is my worst performance ever.

for the past four years of my nj life...

ip1 was bad. 1st for semis. 4th for finals.
i performed up to standard, it was up to luck i guess.
thank goodness we still got the overall championship title.

ip2 was the best ever.
2nd individually, what was sad was we lost the title.
but yet again, i performed up to standard.
i performed like how i usually did during trainings.
and of course,
there was floorball.
i have no recollection of what exactly happened on court actually =)
just that we were seriously lucky.

ip3 was hmm.
still i dont remember playing very badly on court.
and yet again,
i performed up to standard.
i played like how i usually did during trainings.

ip4.
is just a horrid mess. thank goodness the teams doing okay.
out of four games,
i only performed up to standard for one.
maybe i have very high expectations of myself,
but i come out of every game feeling like shit.
i play like 10 times worse than how i usually play during trainings.

thank goodness theres still tuesday.
but im damn scared.
i know im not supposed to think this way,

but if i screw up, (yet again)
thats it.

my last nationals ever, will end like shit.
oh my tian.


mrs tan asked our gp class to list 4 things that make them happy. i wasnt in class so ill list them here =)

4 things that make me happy:

- coco crunch! lots and lots of it.
without milk please.

- sitting on the balcony, reading a good book on a rainy day,
and listening to the rhythm of the pouring rain.

- running. running and running and running along the streets for hours.
feeling the breeze in my hair. and not needing to care about anything else in the world.

- touching furry stuff. like the sheepskin on my bay window. or my aunty's dog.

4 random things that make me happy =)


'Life is a battle.
On this point, optimists and pessimists agree.
Evil is insolent and strong,;
beauty enchanting but rare;
goodness very apt to be weak;
folly very apt to be defiant;
wickedness to carry the day;
imbeciles to be in great places,
people of sense in small, and mankind generally, unhappy......
In this, there is mingled pain and delight,
but over the mysterious mixture,
there hovers a visible rule,
that bids us learn to will and seek to understand.'

- Henry James


its such a beautiful quote that i cant help putting it here =)



was studying at bishan today.
went to walk around for a while after that.
and i saw the latest range of asics shoes!!
omg the kayanos are sooooo gorgeous theres this reddish pink one thats just so prettayy.
and theres this brown and gold model, same model as my shoe thats just so cool!
=((
i want new asics shoes!
but i have too many already =(
i should just be some asics shoe collector.



hmm since i listed 4 things that make me happy, ill list 3 things that is so, weird and uniquely me.

- i cannot eat when the lights in the restaurant or cafeteria are too bright.
i just cannot.
dont ask me why.
like in bishan food court the lights are orange! i can never ever eat there.

- i hate crowds. i cannot breathe when there are too many people around me. ill have this strong urge to scream.

- i cannot shoot when there are lines on the floor. i need to find a nice brown patch to shoot. thats why i like valhall flooring. those lines on the floor seem to pop up when i want to shoot. seriously ive been trying to get over it.

there.
three weird things about myself.


one and a half more hours to cry.
ive been eating coco crunch.
alot alot alot of coco crunch.
eating stops me from crying.

the last time i cried so badly was when my grandpa died in may. one week before cts.
can you imagine going for exams when the rest of your family and relatives are at a funeral?
you walk into the examination room, and you think, "what the hell am i doing here?!!!"

they didnt allow me to skip exams cause 'life goes on'.

after today,
one and a half hours later,

life goes on.


i think ive exhausted all my tears.
and whats left is this deep, deep sadness.

the team played so badly today.
but i have no rights to say anything about it.
because i screwed up as well.
out of 5 goals, our line let in 3.
2 of them were entirely my fault.
i know everything is supposed to be the team's fault, we let in goals as a team.



yes i know.



but those goals just keep replaying over and over again in my mind.
so vivid, those mistakes.
whats worse was knowing that i was capable of stopping them.
the first goal was just a chaotic mess of ppl in the center poking their sticks at the ball and someone shot it in.
the second was purely an individual mistake.
opponent dribbled behind goal, turned and shot it in.
if only i followed her it wouldnt have happened.
the third was just quick passes and a shot. i didnt even expect the shot.



we lost it after the second goal went in. everything just went downhill from there.




and so it is.
the worst match of the season.
even audrey commented that this was the worst ive ever played.

if we played well, and lost, i wouldnt be so sad.
but we didnt.



i was trying so hard not to cry in front of coach.
i could hardly look at him.
because i was so so disappointed in myself, and in my team.
but i couldnt hold back my tears in front of my line.
went back into the court and tried very hard not to cry AGAIN. in front of the guys. lol.
they are out of top 4 already, and you can tell all their hopes are on us girls.

watching rj and yj play, i felt so sad.
that we didnt take our chances.
and there werent anymore chances to take.
that top 2 was just an inch away, and we had to screw up so badly.
i expected a draw. at least a draw.
coach even asked five players to be prepared for penalty shots at the start of the game.
almost cried again at this point.

went to study with val for a while, cause i knew i wouldnt be able to concentrate at home.
val tried so hard to comfort me but she gave up in the end haha.



so many people are asking me about our match.
im thankful that they care,
but im so ashamed to let them know about our atrocious score.
im so ashamed that our supporters had to watch us play badly.





it wasnt nj floorball at all.




sigh. just let me moan and groan and cry tonight.
ive let too many people down today.
too many to be listed here.
ill pick myself up tmr.
and if today's loss has made us stronger and even more passionate about our game,
then this loss would be worth it.


if you want to comfort me,

dont tell me we played well, or i played well.
BECAUSE WE DIDNT.
we know it ourselves.
dont tell me "its okay",
because ITS NOT OKAY.

just remind me that we have another match on tuesday,
and that i do not want to be walking out and crying.
remind me how good i can actually be when i am on form -
that i can dribble pass players easily,
that i can do fantastic board passes,
that i can control the game if i want to,
that i can actually score from halfway during trainings, and not to be afraid to do it during matches.

remind me of how i CAN PLAY when i want to.






come tuesday,
our last game together,
we are going to play like true nj floorballers,
supporting, fighting, and OWNING.


WE ARE GOING TO END IT ON A HIGH.


i mean it.
and im going to PLAY LIKE I MEAN IT.


im damn excited for tmr!!
yilin and ly have promised to give me a secret present for tmr's win.

with so many many people supporting me,
i just know,
that i can be how i want to be on court tmr,
along with the rest of my team,



to our truest capabilities.





may it be the best game EVER.





note to team: if any of you need to get really angry tmr to play well and be aggressive, ask me for juniors attendance. guranteed to make your blood boil.



someone please volunteer to study with me =)
i get bored too easily.

really.
anyone.

a nice kind soul whos willing to study with me =)

you will be rewarded,
with the title of a nice kind soul.

i seem to have a never ending supply of math hw.
just ask any njcian.
they will totally agree mann.
10 qns of math takes 2 hours.
sounds very little right but theres like part a,b,c,d, i) ii) etc dont be cheated by them cunning math teachers lol.


i know. its about floorball again. if i bore you, its just too bad =)

im damn excited for friday.

everyone, please please please remind me that i need to study and stop thinking about floorball.
the guys ended their season today. they won =)
i never got to watch them play.

sigh.
only 2 more matches and 2 trainings left with my beloved team.
the team that i have grown to love after one and a half years.
the team that i have trained with 5 times a week since november last year.

i cant wait to play on friday!! playing in group stage was really fun, but this is when the REAL fun begins =)
i bet you, whos reading this, thinks im nuts.
i mean,
issnt it more fun to play with a team you know thats hard to beat cause they are on par rather than play with a team you know you can beat if we play up to standard?

playing with teams who are just as good,
its going to be down to whichever team that wants it more will win.

besides, its the second last match with my favourite 18 floorballers,
which makes it even more exciting.

njc. last on the table last year. against mjc. defending champions.
we might just create the biggest upset in floorball history =)

its not impossible.
when we all play to what we are capable of, (which i think, is how we played against vj, minus the mistakes)
we can be damn IMBA =)
we will be one scary team to beat =)

sigh.
i dont want the season to end.
yet i want it to end.
i cant imagine life without floorball, and the floorballers.

this is unrelated,
but after As,

i wanna get in touch with my music side again.
i wanna start teaching piano again.
i wanna start piano again and finish my fellowship.
i wanna take up the violin again.

help out with my juniors (more like i just wanna go back and play floorball laaa)

and just catch up with friends and family,
go out with sam and kelvin, my cousins,
and my pri sch mates,
prettayyy st nicks girls,
people whom ive been putting off for ages, (you know who you are =))
and just hang out with random friends from all over the place.

ill do a series of paintings,
ill decorate my room,
ill go back to volunteering at HOPE and teaching the kids new stuff,
and possibly back at acres, vsa and a few other organisations too.


theres so much that i have given up for the big As, just like many others around,
my music,
my friendships,
my relationships,
and other things that make me happy,

stupid As better be good.


bored.
cant sleep.
slept from 1 to 6 today.
bored.
cant sleep.


went for moe scholarship tea session just now in the morn.
andrew would have loved to be there.
there was food. lol.
it was actually quite a good session, a rather convincing session to take up the teaching scholarship.
teachings quite a noble job actually, but i cant really see myself doing it as a career.



im bored im bored im bored.


we must win on fri!!

val has promised that she will buy me a jacket if we get top 3.
jianhao has promised to get me jacket no 2 if we get top 3 too!!!
two free jackets/pullovers/sweaters.

oh i have such wonderful friends. =)

if you are a wonderful friend too,
you can always offer to get me jacket no 3.
i mean,
treating me to lunch or dinner is not such a bad deal either.
of course there are the options of getting me a new bag, or a new pair of sneakers, etc.
=)

anyway.
let me tell you why they are getting me jackets.
i lost one in london last year on a trip with my aep mates (them).
i was just walking on the streets and i lost it.
just like that. it wasnt even mine lol.
they never fail to remind me about it whenever they have the chance.
honghu even drew a caricature of me with my lost jacket.
everyone else was so cutesy, and i just looked.. lost. with my lost jacket.


and then this year,
i went to malaysia with my geog mates and lost another jacket.
i left it in the hotel toilet can you imagine.
i checked the room but not the toilet when we left.
sigh. i dont have an affinity with jackets.


more like im just a super careless person la. haha.
i lost my phone in june, left it on the bus.
it went one round around ntu and amazingly no one saw it.
lucky me.


so val has offered to start me off on my collection of twenty jackets by giving me my first one when we win.
she says if we end up in melbourne u together we will spend most of our time looking for my jackets.
which i think,
might just be true =)


to boost viewership,
frederick wants me to mention that he thinks hes very handsome.
and to thank the guys for coming down to support us today.
thanks guys =) though i bet none of them reads my blog.


see what i told you.
nj lineone owned.
but so did every other line.
we rocked today =)

Nj vs Vj
7 - 3
semi finals here we come!
finally. top four.







finally.









trained so hard together,
fought so hard together,
one and a half years.
long runs, suicides, intervals,
trainings at the d ring, in the gym, at nus, ntu, and acs barker,
after we didnt do well last year, mer and i vowed that we would do anything in our power to get us into top 3.
we are almost there.
as what bx and zhen would say, "we can rest half our minds already."




today,
you could feel our spirit on court, i could almost taste it.
our fighting spirit never died.
our belief in each other held,
losing by 2-0 in the first period,
making a comeback and led 4-2, by the second,
and owning the third with a smashing 7 -3.

i love the feeling of
making a good pass down the boards,
running till you are breathless on court,
but still you are running,
chasing after a player, and outrunning her,
cutting into an opponents path, knowing that shes probably going "damn you",
dribbling pass players easily, finding space,
until ive freed myself to take shots on goal, (whoa that i have to work on mann shoot so many times haven score yet)
facing a player 1 on 1, its like this competition of whose stickwork is better,
or when its 2 on 1, where i pretend to be damn cool and keep the ball in my possession even though im panicking on the inside,
of watching my team play, watching my liners attempts to score, and scoring,
sitting on the bench, knowing that my team is good enough to take the opponents on,

in other words,
i love every aspect of the game. =)







top four.
nobody can say we are not good enough anymore.
nobody has the rights to look down on us anymore.
forever fighting for the gym with other ccas,
who have so called more 'rights' than us to use it,
forever fund raising because of our lack of funds,
we've finally had enough of all that shit.






now,
being one of the few teams in nj with a top four title, (nj sports suck)
we have finally proven ourselves to be a team deserving of respect.
but deep down inside,
we know that we've got nothing to prove to anyone,
because we are champions in our own rights.






its not over yet.
two more matches.
watched mj and rj play today, the two teams that will be in semis as well, fighting for first and second placing in their group.
pris went, "whoa they fighting so hard just to play with us."
lol im gonna take it as aiyo we so popular everyone wanna play with us =)
and jenna went, "they haven played with the best yet." (imagine her innocently blabbing it)
cool right.


so what defines the best team?
to me, the best team doesnt always have to win.
(although winning would be good of course)
the best team will fight,
and play to their truest capabilities even when they are down 10 -0,
they will support each other,
both on and off the court.

i am on the best team.
be jealous =)



so nj people, especially my beloved classmates and aep mates, and other sports teams,
if you want to witness me and my awesome team in action,
please come down on 18th july for our semi finals against mj.
msg me if you want to come down by sunday afternoon cause ill need to give your names to my teacher ic. there will be a bus down.


i can finally sleep in peace tonight.

good luck guys on mon! we will be there.


tmr is going to be LINEONE day =)
according to bx and zhen.
up till now, i think all four of us have not been playing to our usual standard.
watch out people.
nj lineone's gonna OWN.
(of course every other nj line is gonna be outstanding as well, must say that just in case ppl come and scold me haha)

i have no idea how pris and cat managed to talk me into treating them long john fries when they score.

sigh.
such terrible behaviour, forcing the vice captain to treat them.





better pray for me to have more will power tmr, to stop them from talking me into treating the defenders or the whole team.
they have been trying to though LOL.






during morning pt today,
we saw not one, but TWO FULL RAINBOWS.
the whole team was there =)
at the grandstand, where we were the only senior sports team training.








i believe
they are special rainbows,
made just for us =)








njc floorball,
with people so great,





ill never ask for more.


i love coco crunch.
and honey stars.
they are happy food.


played MI today. 5-0.
the team played okay i guess.
i played quite badly though.
its like my second worst ever performance. (my worst was against MI as well, like some curse LOL)
even that game against NUS where we lost so badly felt better.
i think i just wasnt into the game.
i knew exactly what i had to do, where i had to be on court, who was supposed to be where,
i blocked shots, followed the blade, took shots as well,
i did what i had to do,
but even though i was physically in the game,
my heart wasnt in it somehow.

it was as if i was merely going through the motions.


friday, my dearest team, you will see much better play =)



had training after the match at NUS.
i hate long bus rides.
i cant sleep on buses, or trains for that matter. (just ask mer =))
thank goodness i was sitting with yini.
she didnt sleep either while everyone else slept.
got someone to entertain me haha.


the journey home was weirdly funny.
i got stuck with my bag and shoebag at the door of the bus and i thought it was damn funny, so i started laughing. retarded sia. no one was with me so you just see this weird girl laughing to herself.
and then four sajc guys got on the bus and started evaluating why i was wearing slippers. retarded sia haha. i didnt know they were talking about me at first but i could hear bits of their conversation.
".... slippers... maybe she has blisters...no... "
then before i got off the bus, one of them went, "excuse me, but what sport do you play?"
i thought 'you cannot see my stick meh' then i realised my stick was in mers stickbag.
"oh, floorball."
they went, "orhhhhhhhhhh" simultaneously and said bye.
the bus reached my stop at this point so i didnt get a chance to ask why they wanted to know. =(
haha they must really have a lack of conversation topics to talk about a tired looking girl in a team njc jersey and her slippers. so funny.

i like random moments like that.
they are so... random.


this is such a trying period.

nationals.
and art a levels coursework.
on top of that, i have to study for prelims.
and get a b average at least.

im dying from the weight of it all.

if you dont take art, you will never know how tough it can get.
during art lessons, everyones reminding me how much harder we all need to work to get our As.
theres so much to do, experiment, explore, and put everything together in 26 days.
the deadlines we work under are the worst that i have ever experienced.
"at most dont sleep for a few days lor." - advice from my art teacher, on a serious note.

but i cant.
i have nationals.
and this is our year.
i think, that playing floorball is the only time im truly happy in school.

and i have to study.
45 more days till prelims.
i cannot screw up again this time.
B average. at the very least.




these issues are trivial, i know, but they just seem so tough at this moment.
i know these are choices that i made.
i chose to do art.
i chose to play floorball, even though nationals are in july.
im not regretting these choices, they are what made my past one and a half years so much more bearable,

i just need a little encouragement,
a slight pat on the back,
little reminders once in a while that im actually capable enough to pull it all off,




im trying to tie everything together,
but the thread is so thin, too thin in fact,
just one tiny obstacle, one slip,
and everything is going to fall apart.





im dying from the weight of it all.



im thankful for all the wonderful people that have offered me help.
kim and jamie to help set up my art final,
cat with my dreadful econs,
kim again with my math,
andrew as well,
and enqin for just... understanding,
you have no idea how much it all means to me.





please just let the stupid As be over.


i love chicken wings.
and chocolate bars.
really really love them.
ill marry whichever guy who cooks me a whole plate of black sauced chicken wings.
yummy!!
they must taste exactly like my mum's.
(of course it is assumed that the guy is already hot, cute, super rich, intelligent, kind hearted, sincere, etc)


this is random, but i think the whole 'i wanna study medicine' thing is soo overrated.

i, for one, never wanted to study medicine.

in my opinion, many who wanna study medicine just want to do it for the prestige and the money. (our assumption, again, is that you end up amongst the top of the food chain. i think im influenced by gp. mrs tan was trying to make us come up with assumptions which everyone else seemed to get but i didnt)

if some of these people actually cared, they would have spent most of their free time doing volunteer work, or at least something favourable to the society in general, and not merely just collecting cip hours, or trying to fulfill their long term cip projects that others force upon them.


if you are telling me that all you do in your jc life is to mug and get straight As, and to try and score as many cca points, ( theres nothing wrong with this most people do it ) and your volunteer record, in real terms, reads "did 12 hours of cip, with a long term cip project that was strongly encouraged/forced by one of the teachers so as to achieve a good portfolio", and you tell me that -- oh i want to be a doctor, not for the money, but because i wanna help people --

good luck to the future of Singapore's healthcare then.

i mean, theres something obviously very wrong with this picture right?




in my opinion yet again, " what a load of bullshit."







anyway.

everybody's blogging about floorball.
i have nothing to say.
err.
good luck to the guys team today!!

muack muack i love my team =)